My dad was told i'll be getting a call from the yard within a couple days. bout damn time! I need money! Only now i've got the usual anxiety of i have to pay sitters to watch linden so i can work since i decided i want to do 2nd shift because then i can do overtime. i'll need like $50 for gas per week unless i work weekends for overtime then it'll be $70 plus the $20/night for a sitter, which should really be $30 a night since they'll have him for about 12 hours. and I'm supposed to pay $250 for my car payment today but i just don't have it. i'm going to have to call and explain that i need to buy work boots and gas and a sitter with this unemployment check. luckily i can file for this week, so that's $255 for next week and the friday after next week i'll get my first paycheck, if they start me this monday. And with 2nd shift i can go to school in the morning! I'm going to visit uw gb once i have my routine down. i'll have a lot of busy days, but it'll be worth it if i can take the minimum credits to qualify for fafsa.

Then i have to apply for housing assistance. Now that i'll have a real stable job that pays moderately well (assuming i start at the union $12.75 or whatever an hour) i'll be way more financially stable. and i won't have to work weekends unless i want to, which means i can BE A TOURIST AND SPEND TIME WITH MY SON AND DO STUFF LIKE NORMAL FAMILIES. When i worked in the tourism industries (waitress, retail, etc) i had to work EVERY holiday and EVERY weekend. It sucks when i can't take my son to any parades or anything because i'm working. and now i don't have to take off the weekend of the color run either!

I also think i'll lose weight working at the yard. it's a huge place with a lot of walking around (for pipe fitters, at least) and i'll be lifting and welding and moving alllll day. I also won't be eating constantly because i'll be working and i have to pack my own lunches so like wraps and stuff.

I've been looking up baby names, mostly for characters for a story i'm writing at the prodding of my friend adrian. I want another baby so bad! :( no way am i doing anything about it until i'm at least in a stable relationship though. I won't do that to another kid. I'm listing some of my favorite names for a future kid. Heads up: they're very unusual and i don't expect anyone to like them.

favorite girl names: Victoria Sophia, Zephyr Kiley, Juniper Breton, Evie Fable.

favorite boy names: Tannon Matthias, Rowan Andrew (those names honor my father), Patrick Kieran, Aspen Ryot, and Jude Mercy.

ok so here's thinspo

Got a text from Aaron this morning around 5am. it said "i can't believe you finally stopped talking to me." yeah he's being a dick but this shows he's thinking about me and possibly misses me badgering him all the time.

my response: "who is this"

Win. at least i think so! :D because we've gone much longer amounts of time, like months, without talking. it's only been a few days and he's like "oh good you stopped talking to me" yeah that's pretty unnecessary when you have a girlfriend who you'd rather be with than me. HAHA. I'M NOT AN OPTION ANYMORE, JERK! I feel gooooood. I'm in his head, he's in mine but he doesn't know that. I deleted his number but he didn't delete mine. hahahahaaaa win.

The other thought is he was working til 2 am. he normally stays up until 5-6am just like eating something, doing laundry, watching a movie. soooo if he texted me at quarter to 5 am, that means that girl wasn't at his place. who texts their (ex) fuck buddy when their gf they chose over the buddy is right there? I'd imagine that she'd have a key to his place and stuff. of course i'm speculating but that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. Wouldn't you forget about the girl you treated like shit when you entered a relationship with someone? ha. His shit isn't gonna bring me down!

ok i'm done gloating. thanks for sticking through that.

I'm finalizing plans to dye my hair pink and get that undercut. I'm really attached to my natural red color (which is why i won't bleach it, then it'll alter my natural color) and i'm attached to the length of it! it took me so long to get it here! buuut if i don't get it done i'm always going to wonder. And I for sure got the shipyard job, they only interviewed the 10 pipe fitters they are hiring and i was interviewed. i haven't gotten the call yet, none of us have, because they're so disorganized.

Thinking I'm gonna start the ABC diet today.

^sexiest of the x-men lol Sexy Cajun accent, speaks in 3rd person, and can blow shit up. Dream man much??? :P

the baby fell asleep way early today, i just went through my thinspo thinning out what doesn't fit my current weightloss mood (i have over 1500 pics...) and I keep forcing myself to think of aaron with another girl in bed with him, doing stuff with him, him smiling at her bc he actually likes her...and it INFURIATES me!!

gonna go run now.